year 3 and still counting

you know when I am overwhelming I'll either write, or start finding a sharpie and do some abstract doodle?  yeah, I am that kind of girl.

It has been like a really tough times for me. I broke up with my girlfriend. My one and only friend whom I trust with all my heart. it really is not pretty. I have to spend like weeks feeling like nobody wants me, before I realized, we were drifting apart.  We fight alot. We constantly looking for faults. Maybe we better off alone.

and wanna know what sucks?

I build trust issue. I trust nobody and and build like this very thick barrier just so that nobody can see this timid girl I am. I dont have to deal with any confrontation. I hate commitment, other than my field of study. I hate to deal with emotions and those kind of stuff.

but, I do feel alone sometimes.

Perfect

salam peeps!!!

Perfect...apa yang perfect??tell me....anyone??

dalam kehidupan nie nothing,nobody is perfect....please never think of that....in life,people crave for perfections...people work hard in their way of being perfect....but do you know, the more you work for it the farther it'll get....trust me....

and i dont get it when org lain can talk about perfections lead to loving someone....what kind of crap you are trying to create dude??sumpah laaa saya x paham....FYI, there are people like this.. he likes her because she's picture perfect..she loves him because his money can barricade the whole Mt. Everest.....blablabla....weyh,bangunlaaa bro...!!that is not love!!apakah anda dimomokkan dgn simptom2 sedemikian bila anda jatuh cinta??sila meninggal okayhh...sila...

a normal person have flaws like anywhere...e is to accept the flaws as a beautiful side to the person involve....the perfect definition that you are trying to point is just the one and only HIM....

so,sila stop thinking im perfect...stop saying u're not because im bloody tired and sick pointing that u're too are perfect...ohhh crap!

A Matter Of Love

salam peeps!!

hey3!! hows your life?? mine??awesomeeee!!!!!!!hehehe
lately im kinda miserable with all the test,and assignment and projects but hey!! that's me :) my life...

               there's like so many things happening right now and im kinda shocked... (tanjat boboy)...i mean yup, a person who longed for life into being a lawyer is forcefully turned into an engineer...hahaha....i blamed mama dulu but now,hey this is not that bad....kan?? i mean, engineering is a cool field..filled with tons of brilliant people...my study of interest is mechanical engineering.... LMAO...that sounds tough for a girl aye?? but i believe if we put faith in everything we do,nothing will come barricading it :)

                as for matter of love??hmmmm....some people says that college days are the moment where you should find a partner....hahaha...nahhhh~~im better off myself....i mean,im afraid of being hurt...again....im indipendent n the term of having a relationship is merely thoughts i wear whenever im around my girlfriends...but hey, me not having a guy to date means more time for my girlfriends and my family...hahahaha...i believe that our young age is not a time to devote your heart to people but your dreams and aims in life...and as for me, i wanna be a successful design engineer in within this industry...and for that guy of mine '' wherever you are right now'' hahaha...i believe Allah will place him beside me when the time comes.....i dont have mr right yet..but he's about to come along my journey in seeking success and greatness...i used to blame my ex-boyfriend for all the awful things happening to me,my bad thoughts i have for most people...the insecure feelings and stuff,...but hey2!!things happen for reasons right??he simply shows that i deserve a better man...thx dude!!go about preaching people but im not gonna fall into any of your words dear ;)

                 and as for tomorrow to come...be nice to me ok??im hoping that saya will be a good engineer yg contribute a lot to the society...the country and those love ones besides me.... <3

      ''believe that the world is good place to live in by having faith in yourself..u may encounter all the troubles on your way up...but good things are yet to come :) ''

                   
               

FARAHFAZLIANA

friendship is like roses...they bloom,wilt-they hurt u with thorns most of the time...but thx God,they never get tired of spreading their magical scent... :)

ACTION OF THE DAY!!!

most things in life are moments of PLEASURE and a lifetime of EMBARASSMENT ; but PHOTOGRAPHY is a moment of EMBARASSMENT and a lifetime of PLEASURE....:)

remember taking this picture in Danga Bay JB..

a moment of embarassment and a lifetime of pleasure...

(get the idea?)

:)

Let the time heals

Hey,peeps!!lme gler i didnt write

What actually drives me to write is----->boredom??

I love to reminisce about what actually happening around me,everyone,everything...at current I supposed..
and at this very moment I must say, I HATE GROWING UP!

U see,when ppl grow up they are actually into contact with commitments..And as the number adds in,the commitments just keep loading....I'd like to relate this with myself [since this is my blog. :p]

along the way of being a grown-up, I face like tons of experience already... I do expect millions awaits me in the future..

one of them is losing the people u love.

It hurts actually,
It hurts to accept the fact u wont be together for a waaaaaaaaay long time,
It hurts to know that they won't be there like they used to be,
It hurts to realize u won't be together teasing each to other,
It hurts to feel alone when all u want is to share everything...
It hurts~~

 So,dear friends...farewell i bid to you...

everywhere,everytime i;ll be wishing the best throughout the journey of life...whenever we might meet again next time..just remember that girl with her bokeh thing n another guy with his camera....deep inside,im hoping that distance will make our hearts grows fonder...

fly my dear friends...soar as far as u can... me myself will do the same...we will together pull our way to our dreams....and maybe let the time heals those hurtful feelings....

and when you see the pretty stars at night,just remember ill be doing the same too,reminiscing the moments doing bokeh with u.. :)

                                                                                                                                         with love,
                                                                                                                                      farahin zolkafli

The wait

I'll wait....
even if it means i need to put my needs aside.....
I'll wait....
even if it takes decades for you to realize...
But,do you know??..
I guess you dont...
I guess,its not worth it....
Still, I'll wait.....

tension force???how to measure it??

sigh~life...life n life....tho its my desicion,i just think i simply need proceed...i mean,im tired sometimes...all the concepts n formula just kills!!!maybe this is the price i need to pay to be 'somebody'....well that's not the topic...
today,i learn something...when tension force act on a body,we can always calculate it....yeah...thanx to my beloved newton...but then i came to realisation on how we can actually measure our tension force...funny isnt it??
literally,its not the same,but then it came back to basic...when there is always force acting on a body...if its in equilibrium,nett force will be zero...yeah...rigid body...its balance...but then,if its not..we will be moving either to the positive or negative side (in which we assumed it to be..)...i realize that,no force ever begets one's will...
so,think...

p/s:i love NEWTON :P

one evening...

my one and only..





dew of hearts..



choose me:)

land of blossom..

FRIENDS...they are more precious than anything!!!

Blurbs....hye!!!!
I dont really get this idea of writing about friends,but i;'ll write them anyway..

All this while i thought that ill be fine with just relying to myself..Well, i thought that im strong enough,inside out..But along my journey for these past 17 years of living,i can see the role played by those people called friends...

How?How can someone who is only 18 years old talks about life?

Well,here is the story.....

Well i had spent about half of my schooling years in hostels...i did remember the first time i step my feet into my dorm...wish i can tell how much i hate it!!

Hostel years,..i remembered vividly on how my class looks like...u can see nerd looking people on a side...
people with bother-urself faces on another corner ...those happy going type...etc...but what makes us so special is that we stayed unite no matter what happens..not to mention those moments...

Still,when i went to boarding school,,the same thing happens...ive met those who would sacrifice themslves for their friends...ive also met those who would simply stab u from ur back...well,thats life...but still i love hostel life...friends are there whenever u need them... thats hostel..u dont have ur family,only ur friends to share ur joy and pain...

And now,still i have my friends...they are irritating sometimes...cute and lovable at the same time yet understanding in another way round..so love u guys!!!u guys rocks!!!

so people,friends?anyone?

p/s:this hands are mine and my friend.(using my Canon EOS 1000D)..remember those moments when she said "mcm....bestfriend..."though we had just met each other a few minutes...and now,she is my bff...the power of friendship...<3

this is one of my first trials in doing bokeh...danga bay,jb...suke sangat bokeh since its a style where u control everything...(yup!since u need to use manual focus)....so,u!!yes u who read my blog,wish me the best of luck!!

p/s:i would like to express my gratitude to my 2 fellow who had help me with my bokeh ..=)